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risk (rĭsk) n.

1. The possibility of suffering harm or loss; danger.
2. A factor, thing, element, or course involving uncertain danger; a hazard: "the usual risks of the desert: rattlesnakes, the heat, and lack of water" (Frank Clancy).
3.
a. The danger or probability of loss to an insurer.
b. The amount that an insurance company stands to lose.
c. The variability of returns from an investment.
d. The chance of nonpayment of a debt.
4.
a. The variability of returns from an investment.
b. The chance of nonpayment of a debt.
5. One considered with respect to the possibility of loss: a poor risk.

tr.v. risked, risk·ing, risks

1. To expose to a chance of loss or damage; hazard. See Synonyms at endanger.
2. To incur the risk of: His action risked a sharp reprisal.

I took a significant risk this past weekend. I cannot tell if it was a loss or gain. All I can do is wonder if I did right thing. But the one thing that bothers me is: if it felt right, why is it wrong?

Today, Jeric broke the news to me on the way home. I know I have said that to every beautiful ending there will be a wonderful beginning, but I cannot but help be distressed about Jeric's leave for the Marines this summer. Four years seems too long without our constant nagging and teasing about loosing our food babies. I'm going to miss his company.