Neutral Ground

I had the pleasure of going to a concert last night for Sea Wolf. After two years of being in the cave, they still sounded beautifully. Honestly, I had low expectations of this concert at first, but little did I know my mind was going to be blown away. The opening act of Geographer was absolutely amazing. I never knew men with full beards could be so damn sexy. As I stood in front of Alex Church, I was completely mesmerized by his ever so soothing voice. Everyone around disappeared while it was just me and him in the room - and the most beautiful cello player (and pregnant) I have ever seen.I absolutely love the atmosphere of these indie concerts because you are able to encounter nice friendly people (some rude but mainly nice). My new friends Jonnah and Sam were great company and made the concert experience even more enjoyable. I can hardly contain myself to see what happens at Coachellla.

As time flies past, I am in love with life more and more. Regardless of my busy schedule or unfortunate events, I love the life I live and love the people in my life. I am making plans and sticking to it. I being true to myself as well as others. I just wish that there was more time in the day to enjoy how beautiful life really is, but for now, I'm just going to continue doing what I do because it makes me happy. Cliche, but true: "love the life you live, live the life you love."

XOXO

Rest in Paradise

Last week was the most amazing and beautiful time I have yet to experience. I felt like I was on top of the world without anything holding me down. I cannot emphasize enough how blissful it was to take a break from reality to get pampered in paradise. I was able to cleanse my mind and soul to enjoy life even more. I realized that this year was quite a revolution for me. I was able to reflect back on my adolescence years and compare to what I have become today. In high school, I was trying to create myself and figure out what life is all about. So far in college, I am trying to create life (not a child!) and figure myself out. From both experiences, I have completed nothing, but how could I possibly when I'm barely starting life? I am aware of how much I have changed within a matter of months. In January, I was in hopelessly love. In March, I questioned what was love. In April, I fell out of love. In May, I learned to love my family and friends more. In June, I learned to love myself. Now, I am loving life.

I am the type of person who keeps their guard up when it comes to exposing my emotions. I even put a wall up when it comes to family, because I feel like I have to put up a strong front for them to see that I am able to handle reality. I am only able to reveal the raw side of me to those who are my closest and most genuine friends. They are my saviors and gatekeepers - without them, I honestly believe I would be in a mental ward or anger management program. Unfortunately, I find it very hard to bring myself to open up to those who want to be there for me. I push the good ones away, but I realized that maybe there's a reason for it. Maybe they are good people for others - not me. For now, I just want to give a fair warning to those willing potential volunteers to not expect too much from me. I can either blow your mind, or be a huge disappointment.

Pictures of paradise will be uploaded soon!

Happy birthday, America!
XOXO