I feel like I've relapsed from life. My life consists of school, work, sleep, repeat - which I know I mentioned and emphasized many times before, but once more won't hurt. I go on in life and make the most of it but the question still remains unanswered. "Is this it?" You are born, go to school, experience a few phases, continue with school by choice or get a job, have a family or two (hence the divorce rate) maybe even no family, and die. As harsh it is to admit, no matter how much we do with our lives, we begin and end at the same places. Sometimes I convince myself that I will make it out alright in the future, but there are so many factors that could go wrong that makes me lose hope. Behind every smile or laugh, there's always a massive amount of thoughts running threw my head. Sometimes it's a lot to handle. My head zones out from time to time drifting off to endless thoughts. I understand that I am not the only person in this whole world that feels like this, but I guess I'm just being a big baby. I'm tired. I feel drained. I think I wear myself out too much and my mind has its breakdowns. I just need a break or get away to pick myself up again. This sounds like a shopping spree. Hah. I'm still going to stay gold, baby. My head just needed a moment of ventilation, which a bit of Billie Holiday will also do me good.
XOXO
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